Leaves In The River

While I read movie scripts, I’m usually looking for a main character that is proactive – that is, someone who leads the actions rather than just reacts to things. To do the same in life, however, is another matter. If they made a movie about my life, I would be criticized as a “passive protagonist”, because I tend to go with the flow. I think the only time I made a big decision is when I went to film school; everything after that just sort of… happened. Things didn’t exactly fall into my lap, but I didn’t actively make them happen either. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or not – on the one hand, you shouldn’t go through life aimlessly; on the other hand, having no fixed goal means that you’re more flexible when something unexpected happens.

When I’m in the middle of something – school, internship – this attitude makes me confident that I’m always ready for the next thing, whatever it is, but right now, when I’m in an “in-between” period of my life, it makes me feel particularly unproductive and restless. It really is like being a leaf in a river.

All this sounds more negative than I intended. It’s just been a sloooooooow day.

T-shirt: Target (thrifted), Skirt: thrifted, Belt: Forever21
Flats: LA Fashion District, Bracelet: self-made
Post title: song by Sea Wolf

Oink Oink Pants

My niece loves pink (such a girly girl, so different from her mother and aunt.) Whenever we have trouble giving her a bath, saying  she’ll get to wear a pink dress always works. Last night I was window shopping online when she came over, pointed at a pink dress, and said “Oink oink.” It took me a while to understand that she meant the color pink, which to her is the color of pigs 😀 She hasn’t seen this pair of pants yet, but if she does, I’m sure she’ll call them my “oink oink pants.”

T-shirt: Target, Pants: Karen Kane
Heels: Mudd, Bracelet: self-made (everything thrifted except for the bracelet)


The thing I like the most about this round of 30×30 is that shoes don’t count toward the total, so I have a lot more freedom to play around with. Like today, for example, when I decided to go down into the garden and take pictures right after the rain. I didn’t trust any of my shoes to navigate the moss-covered, slippery walkways, so I put on my dad’s old gardening boots instead (the Anglophile in me wants to call them Wellington boots, but it’s too fancy a name for them.) And guess what, they actually go with the outfit.

Taco seems to have become a permanent fixture in my photos these days. Though to be fair, he seemed more interested in trying to escape through the back gate to the river bank than being in the pictures. I thought about going down there for photos one day too, but perhaps it’ll have to wait until the fall, when it’s less muddy.

T-shirt: Target (thrifted), Skirt: thrifted
Headband: Target, Boots: borrowed from my dad