Leaves In The RiverPosted: July 9, 2012
While I read movie scripts, I’m usually looking for a main character that is proactive – that is, someone who leads the actions rather than just reacts to things. To do the same in life, however, is another matter. If they made a movie about my life, I would be criticized as a “passive protagonist”, because I tend to go with the flow. I think the only time I made a big decision is when I went to film school; everything after that just sort of… happened. Things didn’t exactly fall into my lap, but I didn’t actively make them happen either. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or not – on the one hand, you shouldn’t go through life aimlessly; on the other hand, having no fixed goal means that you’re more flexible when something unexpected happens.
When I’m in the middle of something – school, internship – this attitude makes me confident that I’m always ready for the next thing, whatever it is, but right now, when I’m in an “in-between” period of my life, it makes me feel particularly unproductive and restless. It really is like being a leaf in a river.
All this sounds more negative than I intended. It’s just been a sloooooooow day.
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